Moonthly Letter V: The tiredness of chasing things and constantly sowing seeds
The readiness to nurture the seedling that's present
So, March has been intense, right? I'd love to hear what's been present for you either in the comments if you're open to being witnessed by the world, or just reply as an email.
Personally, Pisces season was mostly spent in a delirious state. As Saturn left my 6th House Aquarius, my body was hit with Covid. It was my first experience with this new strand of the flu and let me tell you, in case you’ve not experienced it yet, and I hope you won't, it was the kind of tiredness and muscle fatigue I’ve never felt before.
But throughout the various health struggles from the last two or so years, I got the message loud and clear. There is only so much forcing and doing you can do before your body forces you in turn to rethink these patterns. And in the midst of it, I was introduced to breathwork, a practice that has become integral to the cultivation of connection with my mind, body, and soul, a practice I've fallen head over heels in love with.
Turns out it was the missing link all along. I shared more about that in the New Moon Invitation letter and went into it with more clarity in my new podcast episode.
And it was during a recent breathwork workshop that it really solidified it for me:
we can't have a mind-body-soul connection without one of them being absent.
I can honestly say now that our charts are the energetic maps of our bodies and breathwork is the piece, from lived experience, that allows us to connect to these energetic beings, the beings that are beyond the masks we wear. I am curious to explore that link further within the framework of the Sacred Work and eager to share the findings with you.
What it ultimately comes down to is that our Sacred Work allows us to map our magical paths through this life. And I am excited to be exploring this idea further with you through these Moonthly Letters, the Lunar Invitations but also the Sacred Work podcast.
The Sacred Work podcast will be a space to cultivate deep self-awareness and self-trust with the help of ancient and not-so-ancient modalities within the framework of our devotion to our Sacred Work - a re-membering of our inner wisdom and our magic, a restoring of our mind, body, and soul connection, and reconnecting with our gentle courage to share it with the world.
I’m still feeling into the role that my creative self-expression plays in all of it and I trust that when the time is right, it will be revealed to me. At the same time, I'm inviting myself to soften the edges around how I define creativity and the many forms that it can take, especially as a 3/5 Generator who is here to respond but also test stuff out. I am slowly learning to embrace it and go against how I naturally want to function.
What I have also realised recently is that I am tired of chasing things. I am tired of jumping from one thing to another. As a 3/5, that is a hard pill to swallow as the fear of saying no to things is ever-present.
What if I say no to the right thing?
What if I say yes to the wrong thing?
I know that is just my mind trying to keep me safe. We’re in uncharted territories now and this new way of being will take some practice. But my Sacral self is trusting the process and cultivating that trust in my own body wisdom.
Maybe you’re going through your own version of it, in which case, I'm sending you love. But also, I'm curious and I’d love to hear how you’re grounding yourself.
What’s helping you in your commitment?
Amongst the fear I’ve realised that I am ready to get rooted into something and experiment within those contours, a nod to Saturn in Pisces and Britten's reframing of Saturn. Saturn doesn't have to be about restrictions. It doesn't have to be about restrictions in the sense of feeling limited by the restrictions. As I mentioned in the Aries New Moon letter, what if our limitations are actually the gifts we are here to explore and play with? I'm also inviting you to listen to Britten's podcast episode on the topic of Saturn and Pisces.
I am ready to get grounded in my body, first and foremost. And through that grounding practice, I am so ready to get rooted in this vision I am creating. I am ready to commit and not fear the possibility of saying no to certain things because I trust that they are not for me, at least not right now. And that the things I am saying yes to are for me at this very moment. And knowing and trusting that this too might change.
I am ready to nurture this seedling and eager to see it grow into a strong tree. And that is rooted in my inner authority which as a Generator is my Sacral, my body wisdom, my intuition. And right now it is being lit up by all of the above. It is lit up by the possibilities that live within these contours I’m creating for myself and my offering.
In a way, it is so liberating to know that I don't have to force anything anymore. It is liberating to know that I can trust my body's wisdom. I don't expect it to be easy but I do believe it'll be easeful.
After all, this is what following one’s delight means.
It means to be grounded in the experience of the present moment and trust the process.
It means not trying to think our way through stuckness, even though our mind has an important role to play, but acknowledging when we’re stuck in the mind and disconnected from our bodies and souls.
It means to be mindful of what we invite in and consume.
It means checking in with ourselves instead of constantly seeking answers out there.
It means to be OK with the messy, confusing middle bit and trusting that clarity will arrive when it is meant to.
This may mean certain things will fall away, for now, or maybe for good. And that is OK.
Or it may mean certain things will transform into something else. And that is OK too.
And it may mean we will lose some people and that is OK too.
It just means our path together has come to its natural end, maybe for good or maybe just for now. Either way, let’s be grateful. Let’s meet each other with gratitude that we got to walk this path together for a while.
Inspired by Benedict, one of my breathwork teachers that I've recently discovered, I'd love for us to take a breath together. Let's share a deep inhale-exhale with each other and feel into our connectedness even though we may physically be miles or even oceans apart.
*A deep breath*
What does this all mean in practical terms for Magical Mundanity?
Moonthly Letters will remain the same. They’ll be personal meanderings of the month just gone. They’ll be compilations of things that have piqued my curiosity or brought me joy.
Lunar Invitations will remain the same, however, I’ve slightly adjusted their format. They have become more channeled messages through my body wisdom rather than intellectual musings on the lunar phase and the astrological transits. And what I mean by channeled is a practice of intuitive writing and trusting that whatever needs to emerge through my physical vessel is what’s needed.
Then there’s the Sacred Work podcast. I’ve no idea how regular they’ll be. I am trusting that I’ll know when something wants to move through me. At the same time, I am holding a vision for it - a vision of talking with you about astrology, Human Design, the Gene Keys, tarot, journalling, and breathwork - the framework that allows us to show up to our Sacred Work. And the idea of it is that doing our Sacred Work allows us to follow our magical paths through this life.
In a way, these Moonthly Letters will act as a base for all my magical offerings, so if you feel like you want to stay in the loop, I’d like to invite you to subscribe to these letters if you’re not already. And if you know someone who would love to be part of this journey, please share this with them.
Thank you for allowing me to dream out loud and name the things I’m calling in.
I’d like to pass the mic to you now.
I’m curious:
What are you currently dreaming about? Let us witness you in your dream naming.
*This Pink interview and dancing to this song.
*Breathwork and the various communities it has allowed me to discover, one of them being Breathing Space. And this beautiful soul, Olivia Mendoza, who is local to my area, and whose breathwork workshop was such a powerful experience. She also runs online offerings.
*Jasmine’s Energy Fasting which also includes breathwork.
*Stuart Sandeman’s book, Breathe In Breathe Out. Can you tell that I am obsessed with breath?
*Connection with more openness and vulnerability, both one-on-one and in the community, especially the latter. This is uncomfortable territory for me but I’ve been inviting it in consciously and it has been magical.
*Daisy Jones and The Six series. I was a huge fan of the book, written by Taylor Jenkins-Reid, and was really looking forward to the series. Even though I’ve thoroughly enjoyed it, I remember the book having a much deeper impact on me. I remember trying to imagine the songs but to actually hear the songs, well, it hasn’t quite matched the feeling I got when reading about them.
*Daffodils on my dining room windowsill.
*Sourdough bread.
*Feeling full of energy again after Covid.
*Re-reading notes from 2021 and still resonating with them.
*Dancing in the kitchen while cooking dinner. I’d lost that for a while.
Your turn. What’s been delighting you in March?
I'm dreaming of how it will feel to hold my first book of poetry. It's likely years away, but still, dreaming....
I’m dreaming of finally having the courage to share my website and create offerings to serve others.