Hey,
I feel like recently I’ve often started these letters with “It’s been a while.”
I hope you are well. I hope the tail end of this year is serving you well. I hope you’re finding moments of magic in all the chaos and disruption.
Personally, October was all about quiet anticipation of things to come, feeling disoriented instead, and slowly embracing the most welcomed spaciousness that these readjustments have brought. Dare I say, I’m finally finding my feet, creating some sort of a structure but also diving right into some brand new challenges. And I am loving it all, despite the self-doubts and the frustrations that come with learning anything new.
My perfectionist tendencies have only added to these stormy emotions. I’m trying really hard to lean on the trust that I will know when something is ready to be put out there. I’m also trying to pace myself when it comes to truly honing a skill, such as pen and ink drawing. My impatient side can take over and start doubting every little detail. I find myself wanting to be at a place I’m simply not…yet. But I feel I am finally ready to devote myself to my craft and take the time that it’ll take.
Speaking of being ready. My very first YouTube video that took me wayyyyy too long to edit but I loved the process and I am sure the next one will only take half as much time.
As a very visual person, playing around with this medium has been fun. Pulling all the threads together and creating a weave of sorts with moving images, melodies, and words. I hope you enjoy it.
As always, thank you for being here. Your support means the world to me.
Love,
Silvia
P.S. I feel like I’ve hung out in this song for the first part of my life. Finally accepting my fear of commitment and reaching for devotion instead.
I want to say so much and don’t know what to say. I am so thankful for you sharing about your wishes for a slow creative life and the video is absolutely beautiful.