Let's bathe in the blessing of being
Pondering on sacral being, rushing and rootedness
As a sacral Generator in Human Design, unlearning the forcing of things to happen has been probably the biggest challenge this year. It is this year that I truly started to experiment with my body graph and not just try to understand it intellectually. And let me tell you - that stuff is HARD!
Before deepening my body graph experimentation, I started this year with a long list of intentions. Looking back none of them were rooted in my sacral response. None of them honoured how I am designed to move through this life. None of them honoured my definition and openness. All these intentions had originated from my beautiful undefined Head and Ajna and my open Root center.
I was reminded of this pattern recently when I initially planned to hold a winter solstice breathwork circle. As soon as I’d announced it, I knew that this was not the thing I was supposed to be placing my energy on. After some wild dreams, I decided to drop it. As soon as I’d said that no a yes emerged.
When I look back on the times that things simply happened naturally this year, they all have one thing in common - I waited and I responded when the time to respond emerged. I waited and allowed life to simply play out how it was meant to.
I experimented with my undefined Throat and to my amazement people simply communicated the things I needed them to. I experimented with my undefined Head and noticed all the weird and wonderful rabbit holes I allow myself to go into, chasing facts that don’t matter. I noticed the deep-rooted fear that lives within my undefined Spleen center and simply allowed it to move through me instead of succumbing to its paralysis. I allowed all my openness to rest this year.
And yet I still find myself succumbing to my completely open Root to push me into things immaturely. I find myself giving into my undefined Head and Ajna and try to think my way through. But the proof is there - when I simply show up to life feeling centered and grounded in my sacred pace, things pop up that my sacral can respond to. When I give into that restless energy to want to initiate, I am more likely to find myself in frustration and hustle mode because the thing did not choose me. I chose it with my mind. And it is exactly acting from that restlessness that I’ve really outgrown this year. It is no longer appealing to me to rush into things and act from some sort of external pressure or perceived pressure.
I want to act from a place of groundedness and rootedness.
I want to act from a place of deep soul nourishment.
I’ve been reflecting on what makes me feel rooted and grounded and one of the main things I keep returning to is my breath practices.
Something magical happens during conscious connected breathwork. Something that is often beyond words. Something that is felt rather than understood mentally. And the outcome is most often the same.
Breathwork allows us to cultivate a deeper connection with ourselves.
Breathwork allows us to cultivate a sense of rootedness in our being.
As my breathwork mentor Anthony says, breath allows us to bathe in the blessing of being. And that is something that we have to experience for ourselves to truly understand it in a bodily way. But that is also what is the most challenging aspect of it.
How often do we simply allow ourselves to bathe in the blessing of our being?
Can you give yourself the gift of being during this winter season?
No matter how small or big the practice, can you slow down just a tiny bit?
When someone activates you, can you pause and receive a few deep breaths?
When that urge to rush hits, can you acknowledge the uncomfortableness of choosing being over doing?
Can you notice your breath when you’re rushing and give it your attention?
Can you take a few minutes in the morning before getting out of bed or in the evening as you’re falling asleep and practice Heart Breath?
So often, acceptance and acknowledgment are the foundation of change. We accept and acknowledge how it is before we try to fix something.
Through my own experimentations, I have found that we can’t change something unless we accept how it is; we can’t change something unless we acknowledge what’s here now. Acceptance and acknowledgment bring awareness and once we are aware we can act accordingly from that place. We can start to choose differently. But always meeting ourselves with plenty of compassion and love in the process of it all.
Change is not easy. Change is not meant to be easy.
Change starts with us accepting and acknowledging where we are and through that choosing to show up with a different frequency.
I’m curious: what have you outgrown this year?
Sending you a deep breath,
Silvia
Would you like to breathe with me?
I am currently offering 1-hour 1:1 breathwork sessions for December and January. These sessions come at a very reduced rate of £11 in honour of my training phase.
We meet for an hour on Zoom. We’ll talk a bit about what’s present for you, whether you have an intention for the session or something specific you want me to hold space for. And then we’ll breathe with it with space at the end to integrate and share your experience.
If you have any questions about the breathwork or the session, feel free to pop them in the comments section or send me a private message.